liadanslyre

i'm still sad
well. it's seeped into today. it has been previously established in the blogdom that *this* is not a place to emote. i am now processed over my current sadness. so i can say that the conclusion to this process is:

it is hard when i have read and am taught that the christian expereince is supposed to be 'revolutionary' and counter cultural, when my expereince falls short of that description. i feel very alone in the problems that charles and i face. i understand cognitively that we are not; but it hasen't managed to improve my mood. i know the disparities between what i hear and what i expereince are simply evidences of the already and the not yet- but still; it is difficult.

+++ come Lord heal.
+++ come Lord provide.
+++ You have won. show me your victory.