bye

well- here i sit at the end of another day...

i have stayed mildly busy and am happy to be on my way soon. i hope that in the near future, i will be able to really tackle this issue i am facing in my life of uncertainty and feeling helpless. this job market sucks! i feel paralyzed to stay in the 'security' of this temp to perm job- but really may end up in the looney bin soon if i don't participate in something that seems meaningful that involves interacting with people, helping to meet needs, or be creative. ideally, the next step in life will involve all.

i heard somewhere that a life map does not involve jumping into your niche at 21 after your done with whatever schooling you took to be 'prepared' for your niche. instead- your 20's should consisit of as many enviornements and expereinces as you like- to expose you to what is out there.

your 30's is choosing where to settle (not literally but moreso calling and vocation)...

and your 40's is where you begin to hit your stride.

my 20's were on track. i lived fun places; did things i wanted etc. but i don't feel anymore prepared to settle. i do know what i want from my life and ministry- but i don't know how to earn $. and i don't think i have it in me to just think of the eight hrs i'm at work daily as just putting my time in to do something i really want to do...

and i'm not sure that God made me that way (no judgement statements here).

thinking again about nursing school.

tomorrow i will tell you how things are unfolding about charlie brown.

onward and upward good people!