2005-06-23

a-i
#b :)

b. i thought about posting about how sad i found the coverage of the michael jackson trial to be.

i know all the hooha has quieted down a bit and this is old news. but i only write about it to fulfill my commitment. i hope this doesn't sound elitist; but i get impatient w/ how low brow and decadent our country's taste in what makes the news.

june 14th: michael jackson was declared innocent of being a sex offender.

also on the same day...

democracy a bad word for Chinese bloggers.
approximately 6000 people died of AIDS in africa.
1000 congolese died in the civil war there...

things that also happened that day(and in history) that were more noteworthy.

1811 june 14th: harriet beecher stowe's bday.
she authored a history changing book- uncle tom's cabin.
1940 june 14th: nazi germany marched through the arch of triumph in paris for the first time.

last week in history:

1862 :the u.s. congress outlawed slavery in the u.s. territories.
1971: thurgood marshall was the first black judge nominated to the supreme court.
1996: the USSR held their first democratic elections. boris yeltsin won.
1996: ella fitzgerald died.

today's chewable vitamin:
"it dawns on me more and more how trivial and short our lifespan is. it is like smoke; like a butterflyÂ?it passes so quickly, flying away. nobody, no one can bring back wasted years. one wishes that one would have always lived with eternity in mind."
~ emmy arnold


2005-06-21

a post about my friends...

today's chewable vitamin:
"... i think, often so great and so firmly based that each member of the circle feels, in his secret heart, humbled before all the rest. sometimes he wonders what he is doing there among his betters. he is lucky beyond desert to be in such company. especially when the whole group is together, each bringing out all that is best, wisest, or funniest in all the others. those are the golden sessions; when four or five of us after a hard day's walking have come to our inn; when our slippers are on, our feet spread out towards the blaze, and our drinks at our elbow; when the whole world , and sometimes beyond the world, opens itself to our minds as we talk... who could have desrved it?"
~ c.s. lewis

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"where are they today?"
a thru i

a. i thought about posting about some of my favorite people from the past ten years and where they are today.

b. i thought about posting about how sad i found the coverage of the michael jackson trial to be.

c. i thought about posting how i seemed to of hit a emotional threshold and can't handle discussing current events w/ people that may disagree w/ me.
d. i thought about posting about why that might be.
e. i thought about posting my top ten off the beat and path things to do in columbus and ask that you share yours.

f. i thought about posting my top five favorite passages in scripture.
g. i thought about posting about
congress and how they apologized this week. but then i remembered c-d.
h. i thought about posting a story about when i learned how to drive a land rover defender near the serbian border and how it totally kicked ass.
i. i thought about what i might write in relation to the 10th step experiment.
j. i thought about posting my favorite images from art (across period).

today's topic
a. i thought about posting about some of my favorite people from the past ten years and where they are today.

"where are they today? "

tricia d.:
i became friends w/ tricia working in the residence halls at ohio state. we were both r.a.'s and we were both new christians. we severed ties w/ many of the same entanglements and wanted to impact our friends for jesus. i always felt like tricia was kinda over the top for jesus. it honestly kinda scared me. in hind sight- i know this to be a great goal for me.

tricia is living here in columbus and married to a guy she dated towards the end of college. they have two little girls moriah and seylah. i feel like a schmuck friend b/c i have yet to meet their youngest daughter.

carrie w.:
i like to tell people that i lied to carrie the first significant conversation we shared (this was during a time in my life when i was so profoundly dilluted-i didn't actually know how to tell the truth). i love carrie so much it actually hurts to think about it. i actually grunt sometimes thinking about it. we met and became friends one month after i gave my life to the Lord. let's just say i was a bit of a mess. i had a mouth like a salior (still a work in progress) and i was just completely undone by the direction i had taken my life. she also told me that it was not my responsibility to produce holiness in my life. she explained that my responsibility was to submit to the holy spirit. she loved me- and her love was the first realization that Jesus loved me. i was changed b/c of the expereince. she is a life long friend.

carrie moved from columbus last year to direct the u.s. staffed campus minitry for campus crusade. over the years- we've traveled the world together, lived together and cheered eachother on.

lori a.s.:
lori reads this here blog on occasion. lori and i became friends on a missions trip and our bond was laughter and an east coast accent. her's was authentic and mine was not. lori and i lost touch after college and over the last two years have been back in touch. lori walked w/ me through one of the most pivitol times in my life. infact she helped orchastrate a weekend that helped me flesh out my followership of Jesus. the content of the weekend was that i really got- for the first time- that i had no other choice than to forgive and love my enemy. i got for the first time that this was key to following Jesus.

lori and her husband live in dayton with their two children laniee and johnathan. we i.m. late into the night and those conversation often prove to be the relational highlight to my week.

karen b:
karen was one of the first christians that i met after i became achristian that i felt really 'at home' with. i identified closley with her life expereince and she talked frequently about Jesus in a way that seemed very intimate and attractive to me. she talked about how Jesus was healing her heart. i would listen to her and part of me would think, 'what the hell is she talking about' and the other part would really long for the same experience. she also introduced me to life at vineyard. back in the day when that creepy mime guy was part of worship. we have remained close friends over the years. she has been so great to me and loved me through many different stages of life and friendship.

karen lives here in columbus, is active at our church and works w/ troubled kids.

alana r:
alana and i met when i was a junior and she was a freshman. she was my first jewish friend. she had alcohol poisoning and i took her to the emergency room. i got to share about my expereinces w/ alcohol poisining and how i didn't have to drink every day anymore and how Jesus got the credit for that. later that year; she started calling me in the middle of the night to tell me she couldn't stop reading the bible and how she was staying up all night reading about the life of Jesus. she began to not only like Jesus but love Him. it was very cool to witness. over the next couple of years- we were inseperable.

alana works in the cinicnatti area for an insurance ccompany. i'm not in regular contact w/ her- but i miss her tons. she taught me what it means to count it all as loss compared to the surpassing greatness of Jesus.

marsha h.:
marsha and i both lived on south campus and became friends through crusade. somehow- being friends w/ marsha changed my outlook on what was really important in life. our friendship helped to realign me to what Jesus thinks is important. marsha has a wonderful heart and i really appreciate her candor and outlook on life w/ Jesus. she has no pretense to her and it continues to endear me to her.

marsha lives here in columbus and sometimes drives home w/ us after church on saturdays.

the albania years...
john w.:
was an unrequited love who i was paired with to help lead a team for one year in a small east european country named albania. basically- it was hell on earth- emotionally atleast. but knowing john gave me a mold and aspiration of the kind of qualities i decided to pray for in a husband. he was a wonderful friend to me during a very difficult year.

john and his wife live and work in east asia w/ college students. they have a boy caleb and one on the way.

kyla d:
annette a.:

these were my beloved roommates while living in albania. we almost killed eachother. we were the only english speaking women within four hours drive through hairpin turn- mountainous- bunker dotted dis-repair of a country-albania. if there was something to disagree on- we did. but by God's grace we resolved to bring our conflict to a close each time- and these two women and i have formed a friendship that has been tried and will remain. to this day; i consider tham my green baret friends. they would do anything for me and me them. we are in sporadic contact w/ eachother and count one another as friends of a different grade.

kyla and her husband michael moved from chicago after seminary to work in boston at a church. they have two munchkins.

annette and her husband will live in the indianapolis area. they work on a project called the b.u.v. project to help give the three fouth's world a reliable and cost effective way to transport goods to aid in economic viability.

kristen d:
kristen was like a relational life preserver in albania. she lived fourteen (i think) hours from me in a country the size of new jersey. she served to be a wise and willing sounding board for many of the trials and tribulations that i experienced that year. everytime we saw eachother we talked non-stop. she married a guy on her team (dave- who is also my friend) and they lived a number of years in columbus afterwards. we saw eachother often and remained pretty involved in one another's lives. she was so supportive during my dad's illness.

kristen and dave and their three new daughters (triplets!!!!!- gabby, annalise, and sophia) live and work in the cincinnati area as pediatricians.

liz s.:
liz may very possibly be the funniest person i know. she was on kristen and dave's team in the southern portion of albania in a city that was on the border of greece. you know that passage of scripture about out doing eachother in love? well- liz and i tried to do that only w/ humor. she usually won. she actually spit on me once. which is a whole nother story all together. we did have a lot of significant content to our friendship as well. in the summer, we were travel buddies from this small villiage in the albanian alps into the capital tirana to pick up missions trip participants from the airport to our base camp- where they would be based to show the Jesus film. so we generally had good conversation until her motion sickness kicked in and she barfed on me.

liz married a guy named chris and they live and work in scotland with the pca missions board.

cyd kniffen:
cyd was my 'discipler' which is campus crusade lingo for mentor on a summer missions trip in 1993. we remained friends over the years and eventually both ended up in alabania at the same time. cyd ended up serving long term with campus crusade in albania until just recently. she always called me a kindred spirit. that meant alot to me. i looked up to her lots and she really handled me and my heart with mercy and love during a very tender era of my life. i appreciated that she didn't despise my brokeness and somehow identified w/ me. which i didn't feel at the time that it happened very often at all.

she relocated to long island and is newly married to a juliard trained albanian musician.

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these relationships and many like them have been pivotal in my growth as a christian. i wouldn't trade them for the world.

2005-06-19

actual conversation...
time: 6.15am

m: [alone, asleep in bed]. thinks to self, 'what is that noise?'
[goes to investigate]

c: [singing in shower]

m: 'can we make a rule that there will be no singing of worship songs until 7am?'

2005-06-17

making history...

first off- tune in next week for a-i list mentioned in a post earlier this week.

just wanted to note that there are a couple of things of intrest to me happening around the world this week. some may even consider them to be things that may change the course of history.

the united states senate's atonment for the scuff they put up.

the uscongress has thankfully put some more boundaries on the us patriot act.

today in iran...
gave new perspective to my bitching about standing in line for three hours november 2nd 2005.

Iranians Vote After a Campaign of Violence and Moderation
By MICHAEL SLACKMAN
TEHRAN, June 17 -

Iranians began voting today after an unusual campaign season wound down
Thursday, one that was defined by a field of candidates who all emphasized
moderate platforms aimed at reforming the system and yet was also marred by
extraordinary violence.

There were 12 bombings in the days before Iran's presidential election, killing more than 10 people and wounding dozens more. A campaign office was set on fire, seriously injuring at least one volunteer.

People were beaten while campaigning and posters were torn down, and on Thursday, a day before voters went to the polls, the departing president warned of a dirty tricks campaign aimed at undermining the race.

President Mohammad Khatami said in a letter quoted by the official news media, "It seems there is an organized movement to hurt the glorious process of the elections."

Without identifying who was behind that movement, Mr. Khatami said in the letter that he was referring to the "disruption of gatherings, beatings, illegal pamphlets and spreading lies to ruin candidates' reputations regardless of political inclination."

Iranians are accustomed to their share of political violence, with clashes between riot police and demonstrators a nearly routine part of this country's discourse. But the explosions, which have taken place across the country, have raised concerns that political extremists have escalated their tactics.

Some of the conservatives, who control the all-powerful religious arms of the government, have accused the United States of sending in proxy "mercenaries" to suppress voter turnout and embarrass the Islamic-based government.

But a rising chorus of reformers have blamed extremist conservative forces for the violence. Polls show that the conservative-backed candidates are not expected to do well in the elections today, and that they may not even make it into a runoff election, if one is required.

"We have never had security issues in the country before the elections," said Saeed Laylaz, a political analyst and journalist who has written for several reformist newspapers. "We must see who is losing the game in the last minute. It seems that somebody does not like what will happen on Friday."

Leaving little doubt who he suspected was responsible, he added, "The conservatives have lost the game." The bombings have also underscored the tensions that rest just beneath the surface here, where anxiety and fear exist side by side with the images of a democratic election process. Protesters were beaten by baton-wielding riot police on Thursday for chanting antigovernment slogans while seated in a public park. A witness said the protesters had been chanting about freedom when the riot police roared up on motorcycles and on foot and charged the crowd. The witness was a security guard at a shop across the street - who looked out the door to see what
was happening and was also beaten. "The police came and beat people
indiscriminately," said the man, who did not give his name for fear of reprisal.

There are seven candidates in the race for president - an eighth withdrew Wednesday - and the front-runner is considered to be Ali Akhbar
Hashemi Rafsanjani, a former two-term president who has run as a moderate
pragmatist.

Dr. Mostafa Moin, a reform candidate who was initially barred from the race by religious conservatives, has surged and may have moved into second place, political commentators say. None of the candidates are expected to draw more than 50 percent of the vote, the amount needed to win outright, so the contest is expected to be decided in a runoff scheduled for the following week. Supporters of Dr. Moin say the violence around the country increased as their candidate's prospects improved.

"It is all politically motivated," said Issa Saharkhiz, an adviser to Dr. Moin, in an
interview at his campaign headquarters. "The situation changed when the polls
showed Dr. Moin in second place, and that the conservatives will not go to the
second round."

Many reform-minded voters, those who turned out in record numbers to elect Mr. Khatami in 1997 and again in 2001, had been expected to boycott this election, opening a door for conservative candidates. But late in the race, Dr. Moin's candidacy suddenly became credible, and his opponents began to fear that those who had been considering a boycott would instead come out to vote. The theory among some of Dr. Moin's supporters is that the explosions were aimed at keeping those voters home.

Dr. Moin's campaign was further unnerved on Thursday by a fire it said had been set in a campaign office in the small town of Hormoz, near the Persian Gulf, seriously
injuring a volunteer. Saeed Shariati, a reporter with the newspaper Iqbal, which
supports Dr. Moin, said he had confirmed reports that party officials had said
they were sure it was arson.

The interior minister, Abdolvahed Mousavi Lari, said in a news conference on Wednesday that the bombings were not all directly linked and that only the first blasts, in Ahvaz, near the Iraqi border, were carried out by a "professional terrorist group" that had contact with people overseas. He said there had been some arrests made in that case and that more were expected. He did not give any more details.

As for the rest of the explosions, he said, investigators have concluded there was a
political element involved - though he did not say who was responsible.


Nazila Fathi contributed reporting for this article.

2005-06-16

the truth is
i have no idea what it going on.

i just wanted to say that.

2005-06-15

jenniferandben
this is my sister and brother in law at their wedding this past winter in lagos.

what to write about
i'm not sure what to write about today- but i felt like posting.

i thought about posting something about the things i'm looking forward to this summer. but then i realized we don't have anything stellar planned for the coming months. no vacation to speak of, no visitors (that we know of)... we do have some sporadic outings w/ friends that i'm looking forward to. we're going to picnic w/ the pops which should be enjoyable. my brother and his family should be coming for a couple of days in july and that will be fun.

i think i do better when i have something to look forward to. one thing i like looking forward to is an event or a time of rest. so maybe i should get something on the calender.

but i sometimes think that i like more drama and crisis in my life.
then when i get some- it wrecks me.
then i remember that it is a good thing
that my summer will be composed of reading, bike riding and swimming.
people would beg for my problems. not to pat myself on the back or anything-
i'm just saying that sure- my life isn't excatly what i thought it would be-
but i got it pretty good.

here are some other things that i thought about posting about but didn't. please let me know if any of these interest you...

a. i thought about posting about some of my favorite people from the past ten years and where they are today.
b. i thought about posting about how sad i found the coverage of the michael jackson trial to be.
c. i thought about posting how i seemed to of hit a emotional threshold and can't handle discussing current events w/ people that may disagree w/ me.
d. i thought about posting about why that might be.
e. i thought about posting my top ten off the beat and path things to do in columbus and ask that you share yours.
f. i thought about posting my top five favorite passages in scripture.
g. i thought about posting about congress and how they apologiezed this week. but then i remembered c-d.
h. i thought about posting a story about when i learned how to drive a land rover defender near the serbian border and how it totally kicked ass.
i. i thought about what i might write in relation to the 10th step experiment.
j. i thought about posting my favorite images from art (across period).

today's chewable vitamin
"teach us to give and not count the cost."
~ st. ignatius

2005-06-14

meg and laurel
this is my sister megan and my niecey.

happy birthday megan!

we celebrated my sister's birthday tonight (her actual bday was saturday).
it will be fun.
i love her and her family mucho.

today's chewable vitamin:
14 bless those who persecute you; bless and do not curse. 15 rejoice with those who rejoice; mourn with those who mourn. 16 live in harmony with one another. do not be proud, but be willing to associate with people of low position. do not be conceited.

17 do not repay anyone evil for evil. be careful to do what is right in the eyes of everybody. 18 if it is possible, as far as it depends on you, live at peace with everyone. 19 do not take revenge, my friends, but leave room for God's wrath, for it is written: "it is mine to avenge; i will repay," says the Lord.

20 on the contrary: "if your enemy is hungry, feed him; if he is thirsty, give him something to drink. in doing this, you will heap burning coals on his head."
21 do not be overcome by evil, but overcome evil with good.
~ romans 12.14-21

2005-06-07

it's not you, it's me....
i posted a vent. probably not the thing for me to do.
i did it nonetheless.
i took it down.

i took it down for a couple of reasons.
generally speaking- i don't want to name call.
also, i don't know how to handle the level of emotion this issue arouses in me.

when this happens-
i can tend to loose my sense of ownership of my words.
my tolerance and love level gets low-
then i stay up all night thinking about the sudan and how i need to go and what is happening there right this very second. then i really loose it.

it is certainly a topic worth talking about and discussing.
i just have to figure out a way to do it that is productive for me.

more soon.

chewable vitamin:

gwen: "it's not you, it's me....
george: 'you're giving me the 'it's not you, it's me' routine? i invented "it's not you, it's me."
nobody tells me it's them, not me. if it's anybody, it's me.'
gwen: 'alright, george, it's you.'
george: 'you're damn right it's me.' "

- george castanza and gwen,
breaking up, in "the lip reader"
seinfeld

2005-06-06

jack as jeter
basically, my nephew is the next jeter.

today's chewable vitamin
"christ said, 'go and give all you have to the poor and become the servant of all men,' for if you do that, you’ll become a thousand times richer because your happiness won’t be made just of good food, rich clothes, satisfied vanity, and appeased envy. instead it will be built on love, love multiplied by love without end. and then you will gain not just riches…but the whole world!"
~ dostoevsky

2005-06-01

our weekend
and how basically,
i'm nigerian.

we had a very eventful weekend. for starters, as i wrote in my previous post- it was our anniversary. we celebrated friday evening with some time at the book loft, schiller park and dinner at the old mowak. i took friday and tuesday off which was particularly great. i got some gardening done which is a labor of love for me. we also witnessed the vows of a dear old friend of mine teresa kobelt (formerly crohen) on our anniversary. that was very meaningful.

the highlight was saturday when we attended the anam development foundation buisness meeting. this is the equivelent of a county of nigeria where charles hails. jennifer (my sister in law) came in for the meeting (from new york city) and stayed with us over the weekend. the meeting was held in dayton. it's very cool to see how common and foundational the 'give back' mentality is in immigrant culture. member families pull their money in the form of a 'due' and tackle a problem at home. the availability of electricity was something that we (really they- the meeting was mostly in igbo so i got only a little content) talked about. in the past- the emphasis has been on education and mobilizing kids to goto schools.

i was the only non nigerian person there... i've decided that i think everyone should be a minority for some alloted portion of life. maybe a day, maybe a year, maybe more. but it was a really good experience for me. my sister in law was kind enough to bring me a new booba (traditional garb). saturday night we had a party and everyone was totally decked out in tradtional wear. we ate lots of different stuff and i am continuing on my quest to learn igbo.

one thing that was particularly wonderful was how warmly i was greeted. charles assured me that being an inter-racial (or intercultural) couple in nigerian culture is not stigmatized as it is in american culture. i was happy that the first context proved to be incredibly gracious and welcoming to me and to us as a family. i got a lot of hugs and kisses and chances to charm with my limited vocabulary. the little yoraba i know also stunned a couple of people.

everyone that's older than you is called an uncle or an aunt (out of respect); peers are called cousins. regardless of blood line. while this served to confuse me a bit (b/c i'm still not sure who we're related to); i understood it's not as important to know that (who we're related to)- the most important thing is the interconnectiveness and responsibility to help eachother. i got a good dose of other centeredness and remembering that american society has lots to learn.

if you've known me for one day- you know that i love being irish. saturday made me so happy that i get to own another proud heritage. i loved being immersed in nigerian culture. granted it was only a day- but it was wonderful.

i will post pictures soon.

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addendum:
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i also just wanted to add that i learned that if someone appears to be yelling at you in conversation- this is not an indication that the someone is angry- it is simply an indication that the conversation is a good one.

this is a repeat leason from albania.

2005-05-30

chat in garden

one year
yesterday was our first anniversary. i hear folks recount how much more they love their spouse than the day that they married. even though we have been married only a year- this is true for me. i love charles much more than i did 365 days ago.

i tried to find a post from last june to recount the day- but i didn't write about it. our wedding day was perfect for us. my brother married us at a small stone chapel on vanderbilt's campus. a couple of family friends were there, our closest friends came, and our families. i think thirty total. it was simple and we loved it. we walked across the green to a dinner party afterwards.

i would do it the same way all over again. especially, my choice of a groom. charles is my better in so many ways. he grounds me and helps me to remember what is really important in this life. i love him so much more than i ever imagined i could love another.

2005-05-25

inventory experiment:

over the next month- i'm going to attempt to use these questions to evaluate life at days end. we'll see how it goes. now- you should know that this inventory check is promoted through the 10th step of 12 and these questions are not my invention. they're taken from the book alcoholics anonymous. technically, this inventory should be an ingrained habit. but it is not. i've been funky lately and that's what made me think i should actually try it. i'll let you know how it goes.

how was i resentful?

how was i selfish?

how was i dishonest?

how was i afraid?

do i owe an apology?

what have i wrongly kept secret?

was i unkind?

was i unloving?

what could i have done better?

was i thinking of myself most of the time?

was i thinking of what i could do for others?

who did i help today?

what did i accomplish today?

what am I grateful for today?

who needs my prayers today?

today's chewable vitamin

"a heart for the glory of God and a heart of mercy for the nations make a Christ-like missionary. these must be kept together. if we have no zeal for the glory of God our mercy becomes superficial, man centered human improvement with no eternal signifcance. and if our zeal for the glory of God is not a revelling in his mercy then our so-called zeal, in spite of all its protestism is out of touch with God and hypocritical."
~ john piper

2005-05-21

maggie

m (my niece) singing heart out

the soundtrack of my life

well, i - turned 32.
it's taken me awhile to realize that i am more than three decades old.
but now that i'm comfortable with it; i wanted to do some sort of commemorative post.

so i decided to catolog my life in music.
i should say that i'm a bit intimidated by the prospect.
i know some of this readership-
or this readership's other blogs readship-
are music connoisseur.
and i
am not.

so i'm telling you upfront.
this isn't very high brow.
but here we go...

0-10:
i don't remember what i listened to during this time.
but i do remember wearing our peter and the wolf album thin.
and a lot of john denver.

this was probably the time that my musical taste varied most widely. more accuratley, it was the time in my life that my opinions didn't bear weight in our family's music listening.

10-15:
these were the years where i injested large quantities of pop rock.
including but not limited to:
prince (or the artist formerly known as...)
the go go's (beuaty and the beat)
tears for fears (songs from the big chair)

this is music worth noting b/c i still like the bands listed.
prince in particular.
tears forfears makes the list b/c i got my first kiss from kurt nuber in the bus to the circus for saftey patrol.

the most noteworthy development is that i fell in love w/ u2 in 7th grade.
war was the first tape that i wore out.
christy hildetch and i stayed up all night listening to it.
the love affair began that night.
abbey road was the second album that i wore out.


15-18:
the dramatic, destructive tormented artist years.

these three years are pretty gray in my mind.
like many others, these years contained the height of my teenaage rebellion.

i listened to a lot of pink floyd, the doors and the who.
i had a steady diet of u2 throughout.
i know these tastes seem disjointed- but they rightly reflect how i felt (as in disjointed).
i also like the velvet underground (loaded), and the dead.
alot of the music i listened to fed how i wanted to fit the part
(the part in my mind was to live off my drug enhanced art in new york city).

there was also a sprinkled intrest in simon and garfunkle and 10,000 maniacs.

18-22:
the years of the zealot.

these were my years as a zealot. i have a love hate relationship w/ this time in my life.


i listened to a lot of brooklyn tabernacle.
i also started going to the vineyard and got turned on to worship music.

i didn't exactly think that secular music was bad and that led zeplin albums spun backwords lead to the worship of satan-
but for whatever reason-
my music intake was revolved around brooklyn tab, kirk franklin, helen baylor, and ofcourse u2.

22-26:
the years of the toned down zealot pt 2.

i was (and still am) very passionate.
if you weren't passionate about the same things and in the smae way as me-
we had problems.
i would push you out of my life one way or another.
it wasn't pretty. there were good things too-
but i didn't know what balance was during this time in life
(a lesson i am still learning- but i was laregly in the dark about it as it unfolded).

my taste in gospel continued.
i was also really getting into being irish.
i picked up a fondness for some 'tradtional' celtic stuff. mostly the cheiftans.
an irish evening was a well worn cd- i felt roger daultry was a kinsmen.
i listened to cranberries, the sundays, and van morrison.

i also began to realize that there was a lot to jazz.
my initiation didn't wade into anything far beyond the classic jazz mucians.
i picked up a fondness for john coltrane in particular.

i fell in love w/ david wilcox at this point. and rediscovered my liking of sir elton john. i also saw billy joel in central park which made me an unapologetic band wagon fan for a moment that i savored.


26-30:
the jaded years.

this is when i thought it was cool to be jaded and cynical.
i thought i was very deep.


this is when i realized that stevie wonder's music did my soul good and inevidibly made me smile. i was a late bloomer and listened to more and more over the rhine. indigo girls was nearly always on the deck. i also found macy gray- whom i love. i had another unapolgetic band wagon moment when my eyes were opened to nick drake via a faboulous vw commercial.

i found the blind boys of alabama and all things sinatra.
i also dug up some old earth wind and fire. which i love(d).

the third decade that i am now well into...

i have tons of carryovers (both in taste and issues)

i have recently discoved stereo lab, etta james and yo yo ma rock my tiny mind.
i am being schooled in the ways of some west african tunes and fun worship songs that aid in my attempts to learn igbo.

the rest of my musical script is still unfolding.




2005-05-17

jack at top of stairs

today's chewable vitamin
"we who are rich are often demanding and difficult. we shut ourselves up in our apartments and may even use a watchdog to defend our property. poor people, of course, have nothing to defend and often share the little they have.

when people have all the material things they need, they seem not to need each other. they are self-sufficient. there is no interdependence. there is no love. in a poor community, however, there is often a lot of mutual help and sharing of goods, as well as help from outside. poverty can even become a cement of unity."
~ jean vanier

2005-05-16

100000

well. the fox gone done and did it.
she rolled over the speedometer to 100,000 miles.

i got her when she was only 50,000 miles old. she’s grown up so fast!
i fell in love almost immediately. i took her for a spin and liked driving a manual again. she was quirky and fun and i loved her. she was a reminder that God hadn’t forgotten me about me. i got her for dirt cheap when i realized that debt was ruining my life.

she’s seen a lot in her day- and hopefully there is more good times to come.

she’s seen a lot of air guitar and air drumming.
she’s seen some arguments.
she’s seen some crying alone.
she’s carted around many a niece, nephew or adopted niece/nephew.
she’s seen her share of make out sessions.
she’s seen alabama for goodness sake.
she’s overheard countless prayers.
she’s heard her share of practice conversations.
she’s heard many days planned aloud.

one time, she had flames shooting out of her wheel rims when i thought i was going to die. but i didn’t. i’m still here- and so is good ole’ foxy.

thank you lord for my simple quirky fairly reliable foxy!

2005-05-13

smiles
got this from here...

i know it's long but please read it.

today's chewable vitamin

"It follows that in order to do justice in the struggle against AIDS, churches must stand against poverty. This is in keeping with God's will; never in the Bible are God's children given permission to be complacent about poverty. In Deuteronomy 15 we are told that there will never even be poor among us if we fully obey God's commands. The fact that some are poor is proof of our fallen state. Though we are fallen, we are not allowed to give up: God still tells us to give generously and be openhanded toward our brothers and sisters.

In Christ, God gives us a model life of generosity and relationship with the poor. Often misconstrued are Christ's words to Judas: "The poor you will always have with you." Jesus was not making a statement of fatalistic apathy, but quoting God's condemnation from Deuteronomy that allowing our brothers and sisters in Christ to be poor is a key indicator of our disobedience to the Father. In Luke Jesus begins his public ministry by quoting from Isaiah 61 that he has come to "preach good news to the poor."

This good news should come from today's body of Christ in two words: debt relief. Consider Zambia, which currently pays 30 percent more in debt repayments than on health. And Zambia's is not the only similarly burdened budget. Debt relief will enable AIDS-afflicted nations to more completely address the crisis within their borders by spending more on prevention/education and treatment. Behavior modification strategies are marginally successful and are only part of a comprehensive strategy — a strategy that must have aggressive debt relief as a central pillar. "
~ jerad morey (taken from this paper)

2005-05-11

sweet emerson

i love this picture.
he looks like he's in a commercial of something.

today's chewable vitamin

"when the power of love becomes stronger than the love of power,
we will have peace."
~ jimi hendrix

2005-05-09

sullys kitchen table band

today's chewable vitamin
"it is logical that the united states should do whatever it is able to do to assist in the return of normal economic health in the world, without which there can be no political stability and no assured peace. our policy is directed not against any country or doctrine but against hunger, poverty, desperation and chaos."
~ george c. marshall

2005-05-06

darfur5_1

113 days



"Finally, finally, finally, President Bush is showing a little muscle on the
issue of genocide in Darfur. Is the muscle being used to stop the genocide
of hundreds of thousands of villagers? No, tragically, it's to stop Congress
from taking action.

Incredibly, the Bush administration is fighting to kill the Darfur
Accountability Act, which would be the most forceful step the U.S. has taken so
far against the genocide. The bill, passed by the Senate, calls for such steps
as freezing assets of the genocide's leaders and imposing an internationally
backed no-fly zone to stop Sudan's Army from strafing villages.

The White House was roused from its stupor of indifference on Darfur to
send a letter, a copy of which I have in my hand, to Congressional leaders,
instructing them to delete provisions about Darfur from the legislation.

Mr. Bush might reflect on a saying of President Kennedy: "The hottest
places in hell are reserved for those who in a period of moral crisis maintain
their neutrality."

Aside from the effort to block Congressional action, there are other signs
that the administration is trying to backtrack on Darfur. The first sign came
when Condoleezza Rice gave an interview to The Washington Post in which she
deflected questions about Darfur and low-balled the number of African Union
troops needed there.

Then, in Sudan, Deputy Secretary of State Robert Zoellick pointedly refused to repeat the administration's past judgment that the killings amount to genocide. Mr. Zoellick also cited an absurdly low estimate of Darfur's total death toll: 60,000 to 160,000. Every other serious estimate is many times as high. The latest, from the Coalition for International Justice, is nearly 400,000, and rising by 500 a day.

This is not a partisan issue, for Republicans and the Christian right led
the way in blowing the whistle on the slaughter in Darfur. As a result, long
before Democrats had staggered to their feet on the issue, Mr. Bush was
telephoning Sudan's leader and pressing for a cease-fire there.

Later, Mr. Bush forthrightly called the slaughter genocide, and he has continued to back the crucial step of a larger African Union force to provide security. Just the
baby steps Mr. Bush has taken have probably saved hundreds of thousands of
lives.

So why is Mr. Bush so reluctant to do a bit more and save perhaps several
hundred thousand more lives? I sense that there are three reasons.

First, Mr. Bush doesn't see any neat solution, and he's mindful that his
father went into Somalia for humanitarian reasons and ended up with a mess.

Second, Mr. Bush is very proud - justly - that he helped secure peace
in a separate war between northern and southern Sudan. That peace is very
fragile, and he is concerned that pressuring Sudan on Darfur might disrupt that
peace while doing little more than emboldening the Darfur rebels (some of them
cutthroats who aren't negotiating seriously).

Third, Sudan's leaders have increased their cooperation with the C.I.A.
As The Los Angeles Times reported, the C.I.A. recently flew Sudan's intelligence
chief to Washington for consultations about the war on terror, and the White
House doesn't want to jeopardize that channel.

All three concerns are legitimate. But when historians look back on his
presidency, they are going to focus on Mr. Bush's fiddling as hundreds of
thousands of people were killed, raped or mutilated in Darfur - and if the
situation worsens, the final toll could reach a million dead.
This Thursday marks Holocaust Remembrance Day. The best memorial would be for more Americans to protest about this administration's showing the same lack of interest in Darfur that F.D.R. showed toward the genocide of Jews. Ultimately, public pressure may force Mr. Bush to respond to Darfur, but it looks as if he will
have to be dragged kicking and screaming by Republicans and Democrats
alike.

Granted, Darfur defies easy solutions. But Mr. Bush was outspoken and
active this spring in another complex case, that of Terry Schiavo. If only Mr.
Bush would exert himself as much to try to save the lives of the two million
people driven from their homes in Darfur.

So I'm going to start tracking Mr. Bush's lassitude. The last time Mr.
Bush let the word Darfur slip past his lips publicly (to offer a passing
compliment to U.S. aid workers, rather than to denounce the killings) was Jan.
10. So today marks Day 113 of Mr. Bush's silence about the genocide unfolding on
his watch. "

watch this movie...

read darfur accountability act

saw this and thought of the irony...

today's chewable vitamin
"freedom is a divine gift that carries with it a tremendous human responsibility. the national day of prayer is a day that we ask that our nation, our leaders and our people use the freedom we have been given wisely. and so we pray as americans have always prayed: with confidence in God's purpose, with hope for the future, and with the humility to ask God's help to do what is right."
~ president george bush 2005.05.05 for national day of prayer
(emphasis mine)

2005-05-05

nora's in the mob

well today is 050505
and i thought i should write something b/c i like that date.

well- i've had kinda a weirdly religious day.
for starters-
i am reminded today of the saying that
the problem w/ christianity is christians.
we do buisness with people who are high profile christians.
these high profile christians treat my coworkers and supervisors like doo doo.
worse yet- after they are done treating them like doo doo-
they try and share the gospel with my coworkers and supervisor.
all and all- this seems to make my job as a christian-
a bit more difficult than it already is.
and frankly, i don't appreciate it.

but then again; it gives me ample opportunity to remind myself and my friends that this why Jesus had to die (b/c all fall short of the glory of God- even high profile christian jerks).

and then i remembered that i'm sure i've made someone elses' job as christian difficult w/ some of the noensense i've said and done (by commission or ommission).

and then i calmed down.

[paranthetical aside: i don't mean to minimize the effects of sin on our world- but it does my heart and mind good when i dwell in Jesus and not the sin. infact i am certain that dwelling on Him is the only thing that keeps me sane in this crazy world.]

then i met the mormons for lunch.
which is always weird for me. b/c the mormons that i know all seem to really believe that whole schtick. and it bothers me that they are so sincerely blind. i don't like it.

but i bumped into them at subway and i just felt like i couldn't not talk to them.
i mean- they're mormons and they're sincerely blind.

oh-
and by the way-
for those of you that use bebo-
i know that my brithday was registered for today.
but it's not my birthday.
but it's been fun to get cards, free coffee (thanks kirsten) and whatnot-
it was wholy unplanned. not a conspiracy.
thanks.

today's chewable vitamin
“each time a man stands up for an ideal, or acts to improve the lot of others, or strikes out against injustice, he sends forth a tiny ripple of hope... building a current that can sweep down the mightiest walls of oppression and resistance." ~ robert f. kennedy

2005-04-29

every valley

so i know i've been talking politics and issues on this here blog of mine.
maybe it's a tired subject that i need to put to bed.
but- these things have been on my mind a lot lately.

they have been on my mind b/c it seems
i've been confronted with how wacked out our country is.
don't get me wrong-

i'm glad i'm a u.s. citizen.
i'm grateful i suppose that i was born w/ white skin.
into a middle class family.
with access to a primary care doc
and not just the emergency room.
i'm grateful that police don't profile me
or that employers level correction or worse relieve me from a job b/c i have a foriegn accent.

i mean- sure- we have laws to protect 'outsiders'.
we have some level of senstivity to not proverbially kick the weak to the curb.

but it doesn't work.
and i'm wondering what i can do about it.

then i came across this entry. granted, it was written specifically about women's role in society and the church in particular. i have really latched onto the ideas he outlines and wondered how they might apply more broadly. might it be beneficial to surrender my priveledge/power to abide- in the truest sense of the word- with those that are marginalized? we see it modeled in Jesus' life. i want to pray that God would show me how to do this- and that i would have the cahoonas to do it.

what are your thoughts on this?

and don't write me hate mail asking if i'm proposing that you feel guilty for being born into priveledge.

"symbolically i am the old-guard - i am a western, white, educated, middle-class, male and as such part of my calling is to surrender my "power" (as best as i am able and aware), to hear and really listen to the stories of the "other," and to choose "us," by stepping into relationship."

"the way of Christ is to leave the center and step into the margin. By moving into the margin the marginalized no longer are . . . how do we shape the ethos of a community . . . by our presence."

these quotes are taken from a post by dwight friessen- some guy i've never met. on occassion- i read his blog.

chewable vitamin
"3 A voice of one calling:
"In the desert prepare
the way for the LORD;
make straight in the wilderness
a highway for our God.
4 Every valley shall be raised up,
every mountain and hill made low;
the rough ground shall become level,
the rugged places a plain.

5 And the glory of the LORD will be revealed,
and all mankind together will see it.
For the mouth of the LORD has spoken."
~ isaiah 40.3-5

2005-04-27

aidan's passport

this is aidan's passport photo for ghana
(or an attempt thereof)
as my brother put it,
'is this kid excited to goto africa or what?'

today's chewable vitamin
"when you get into a tight place and everything goes against you, till it seems as though you could not hold on a minute longer, never give up then, for that is just the place and time that the tide will turn."
~ harriet beecher stowe

2005-04-25

jim wallis article
this is an article that i enjoyed very much.
it is written by jim wallis who is the editor of a magizine
that i devour regularly called sojorners.
he is also the author of a book i am reading called,
'god's politics: how the right gets in wrong, and the left doesn't get it'

this article was written in response to an event called justice sunday.

"During the 2004 election campaign, Jerry Falwell and Pat Robertson virtually said Christians could only vote for George W. Bush. Many of you, along with other Christians and people of faith, responded with letters to the editor, newspaper ads, and even bumper stickers reminding America that "God is not a Republican...or a Democrat." Then the Republican National Committee circulated lists of "duties" to local churches, which included turning over their congregational membership lists. The RNC also sent postcards to voters in some states with images of a Bible being banned and a man putting a wedding ring on another man - warning that this was what "liberal" politicians planned to do.

Now the Religious Right is saying that supporting the president's judicial nominations is a test of orthodoxy. This is a dramatic new and serious breach in the relationship between faith and politics.

James Dobson of Focus on the Family, Tony Perkins of the Family Research Council, Prison Fellowship's Chuck Colson, and Southern Baptist leader Albert Mohler are hosting "Justice Sunday," a telecast this weekend from a mega-church in Louisville, Kentucky. Their message is that those who don't support President Bush's judicial nominees are hostile to "people of faith."


Senate Majority Leader Bill Frist plans to join them by video to get political support for his effort to end the Senate practice known as the filibuster, which is designed to delay a vote on controversial issues in order to protect strong minorities from being overrun by majorities. The Republican leader's appearance at this event endorses the Religious Right's claim that the Democratic filibuster of a small number of very conservative judges is "a filibuster against people of faith."

Despite the fact that Democrats oppose these judges for their views on a variety of subjects, conservative leaders have singled out abortion and gay marriage as their chief concerns and only want judges who support their agenda. Despite the fact that many Democrats who oppose some of President Bush's nominees are themselves people of faith, Republicans and their religious supporters are questioning the faith and religious integrity of their opponents.

That is an escalation of the religious/political war. And the two together sound like assertions of a Republican theocracy. Behind these activities lies a fundamental assumption by Republican operatives and their conservative religious allies that they own religion in America. They demand that religious people vote only their way. They claim that "values voters" in America belong to them, and they disrespect the faith of those who disagree with their agenda. There are better words for this than just "politically divisive" or "morally irresponsible." For these are not merely political offenses, they are religious ones. And for offenses such as these, theological terms are better - terms such as idolatry and blasphemy.

We should bring our religious convictions about all moral issues to the public square - such as the uplifting of the poor, the protection of the environment, the ethics of war, or the tragic number of abortions in America - without attacking the sincerity of other people's faith, or demanding that we should win because we are religious. We must make moral arguments and mobilize effective movements for social change that can powerfully persuade our fellow citizens, religious or not, on what is best for the common good.

What I hear, from one end of this country to the other, is how tired we are of ideological religion and how hungry we are for prophetic faith. Join me in sending a message to Senator Frist that we are people of faith, and these Religious Right leaders do not speak for us. "


today's chewable vitamin
"no one can make you feel inferior without your consent."
~ eleanor roosevelt

2005-04-22

economist
i got this photo from the economist b/c i'm linking to the article.
please don't sue me.


well my peeps
i have a couple of completely contextualist and random things to cover today.

for starters-
my brother's church plant has a new website and logo.
you can see it here. i'm really proud of him.

also, my niece had her adenoids taken out. so now i know where adenoids are... which for those of you unfamiliar like myself- they are in your nose. who knew?

i think this article and its title ("if only the adults would behave like the children") is fabulous.
i posted the photo above that was included in the article b/c i like it.

the michael bolton watch
(i actually mean john bolton- but i like to amuse myself)

the economist weighs in.

and for all you who are not stick to your guns rebuplicans-
you may like to read this article.
(by the way- i'm not going to link to the times as much-
although that is the news source i read most often
(b/c they become dumb links after a couple of day))
the article talks about colin powell's reservations on bolton's nomination.

today's chewable vitamin
"the matter is quite simple. the Bible is very easy to understand. but we Christians are a bunch of scheming swindlers. we pretend to be unable to understand it because we know very well that the minute we understand we are obliged to act accordingly. take any words in the New Testament and forget everything except pledging yourself to act accordingly. "
~ soren kierkegaard

2005-04-19


a prayer for the catholic church

well Lord Jesus, we got a new pope.
thanks for how you love your church.
i pray today for the new pope-
anoint his role in the direction and work of the catholic church.
give him wisdom on how to repent where the church has fallen short-
and grace to call the church to the important work of your Kingdom.
i pray that he would be an instrument of revival within the catholic church.
bless him lord- even though it's not cardinal arinze.

amen.

today's chewable vitamin

"pervading nationalism imposes its dominion on man today in many different forms and with an aggressiveness that spares no one. the challenge that is already with us is the temptation to accept as true freedom what in reality is only a new form of slavery."
~ pope john paul ii

2005-04-18

randomly...
here are a couple of things rolling around in the ole' noggin today.

there's black smoke at the vatican today.
this means no pope has been agreed upon.
i'm hoping that cardinal arinze will be the next pope.

i've found a minor ocd pattern of mine.
if anyone close to me (proximity wise) gets sick;
i immediately want to cut my nails off
b/c i'm convinced my nail beds hide germs.
and yes- i know there's medicine for that...

i slept three hours friday night.
i kept myself up fretting about what i convinced
myself to be a blood clot in my leg.
the dull pain has since subsided.
and yes- i know there's medicine for that too.

i found this link and i find interesting but it also makes me sad.

this is an article that i liked today. it's about forgiveness.

we met friends in the park sunday.
i came home smelling like spring's perfume.
grass and prespiration. i loved it!

i had my first negative expereince at the temple of chipoltle.
i had really fatty barbacoa and it made me want to barf.
it was all slimy and hard to chew and i couldn't spit it out.

and...
if your wondering about our weekend-
it was wholy unproductive.
i never even tried to put my aspirations
for spring cleaning into place.

today's chewable vitamin

i heard a thousand blended notes
while in a grove I sate reclined,
in that sweet mood when pleasant thoughts
bring sad thoughts to the mind.

to her fair works did nature link
the human soul that through me ran;
and much it grieved my heart to think
what Man has made of Man.

through primrose tufts, in that sweet bower,
the periwinkle trail'd its wreaths;
and 'tis my faith that every flower
enjoys the air it breathes.

the birds around me hopp'd and play'd,
their thoughts i cannot measure,—
but the least motion which they made
it seem'd a thrill of pleasure.

the budding twigs spread out their fan
to catch the breezy air;
and i must think, do all i can,
that there was pleasure there.

if this belief from heaven be sent,
if such be nature's holy plan,
have i not reason to lament

what Man has made of Man?
~ william wordsworth


2005-04-14

another foreign policy post

sorry.

what do william mcnamara and paul wolfawitz
have in common?
(aside from their involvement in the department of defense...)

both got appointments to the world bank presidency.

it is largely believed that mcnamara got pushed out of the johnson whitehouse cabinet into this post to neutralize his voice of descent to the vietnam war (which evolved over time). i bet there are other takes on why he got pushed out. i wonder if there is more to the story on wolfawitz's appointment.

and by the way- i'm worried.

i'm worried that this john bolton character is bad news.
i think he is really bad news.
thankfully- his confirmation hearing is not just sliding by-
but instead is meeting some challenges.

see- i like the UN.
i grew up in a house where president kennedy was adored
and president truman was as well.

now please don't leave me hate mail comments
about how awful the UN is...
(anne and marcia)
i know that they are lame sometimes.
ok- a lot of the times.

but i think in principle it is an important body in today's world.
in practice they have failed terribly in different generous.
but on the whole they serve to give our world some checks and balances

call me crazy-
but i think it's important to have someone
represent our country to the united nations
who actually believes in the potential of the UN
and doesn't think of it as something that we need to get rid of
so we can do whatever the hell we want.

+++

here is a leading reason i would like cable. this is my favorite nyt editorialist's documentary. it's called 'does europe hate us?'

+++

here is something good about american foreign policy i read recently.

+++

?????????????
day of truth
?????????????

oh
and incase you didn't know-
today is the day to let all the gay people in your life
know that you think their sexual practices are wrong.

this is discouraging stuff for me to read.
in part b/c i think it totally misses the boat on what the Gospel is...
and in part b/c i think that it is dangerous
to 'fight for our right' to be heard and to practice the first amendment.

but most of all it seems irrelevant
b/c i don't know that anyone is listening.
and in my mind this day does nothing to cause anyone
to want to listen.

today's chewable vitamin
"when we become aware that we do not have to escape our pains, but that we can mobilize them into a common search for life, those very pains are transformed from expressions of despair into signs of hope"
~ nowen

2005-04-12

jackteeball
this is my nephew john nolan sullivan.
he goes by jack and he plays tee ball.
he's the shorter one.
click here to read my brother's commentary on this photo.

my morning dream

dancing at the gas station

i pulled the fox into gas station.
i walked in and heard a familuar tune.
i went to the line to wait in front of the crack dispenser.
i had to wait my turn.
i tapped my foot. i enjoyed the music.
as i listened to the music; i got my crackaccino.

then- it happened.
phil collins transported me into another world.
and i danced.
infact- i danced my ass off.
at the gas station.

latino carpet layers packed into their van
and watched and laughed in amusement.

i didn't care.
it was phil collins afterall.

today's chewable vitamin
"it is in the ordinary duties and labors of life that the christian can and should develop his spiritual union with God."
~ merton

2005-04-08

i suppose
the last week or more could be described as a bit difficult and stressful- but all in all there is so much for me to be grateful and grounded in...

here are some of them:

today's gratitude list

flip flops.
the perennials in my yard that are getting ready to bloom.
my family- especially my husband.
for the health of my family.
that if we’re sick we can goto the doctor.
that i’m free from the burden of judgment
(both the to delve the judgment out and to receive it)
for spell checker
oil paint that is mixed well but still bleeds and swirls.
my work environment.
our affordable apartment.
starbucks
forgiveness
hope and vision
our church.
that i can pray whenever i what.
that all the black people in america don’t just get up and leave.
that i can connect w/ the Lord.
my sobriety.
that my dreams have so drastically changed from when I was 18.
mercy and grace.
the smell of rain in the air- minus any remnant of wet dog
(I don’t like that smell).
that my parents didn’t give up on me when i was in my fullblown asshole stage.
bono
candles
that the Lord can change me.
judy niemie.
that i can read.
that i am getting better at saying i was wrong more quickly.
how i live in a country where they plant flowers along the side of the highway.
that we have highways.
the process of kneading clay.
that my life is really pretty good in the grand scheme of things.
learning to laugh at myself.
my emotions are not necessarily an indicator of reality.
i’m getting better at not saying everything that comes to my mind.
really good bass lines
it's friday!

today's chewable vitamin
little minds are tamed and subdued by misfortune; but great minds rise above them.
~ washington irving

2005-03-31

where do i begin?
well i saw hotel rwanda.
it was awful-
but you should see it.

it should be seen b/c it's good to know history.
it should be seen b/c it is not simply an account of history pass-
it is a reflection of similar things happening around our world today.

it was so terrible to watch the terror unfold.
it was terrible to know that it really happened.
it was embarrassing to know that we were complicit
in the genocide by not intervening on behalf of the helpless.
it was even more embarrassing to realize
that for all the progress we've made;
we are a severely impaired society.
fears and out and out dislike for people who are not white
has poisoned out foreign policy and allowed for us to rationalize
standing by and watching thousands and in this case hundreds of thousands of people die.

"i prayed for twenty years but received no answer until I prayed with my legs."

this is a quote i posted as a chewable in late febraury. it's from a man who knew what it meant. a leader in the movement to abolish slavery in america. it really resonates w/ me in a new way after watching this movie. i mean- don't get me wrong- i believe in prayer! but i think it is an insufficient response for me to walk out this new knowledge and understanding through prayer (solely).

so i'm posting some things on here for your consideration. my knowledge base is so limited. and honestly, this seems like a lame response. but i'm hoping that some of you- can share your knowledge base here as well. and if you're doing something about an injustice in the world that is largely under-reported, forgotten or ignored- please share that too.

zimbabwe
(east africa)
nicholas kristof a conservative editorialist for the times recently snuck into zimbabwe. he is writing about his experience here. there are important "elections" happening today. the average life expectancy in this country is 33. the only bright spot is that there dictator (who is one of the worst in modern history- in part for his keen hand to destroy the economy and in part b/c of the inequities in dealing w/ AIDS drugs) is now eighty years old and will die soon.

hrw
amnesty

aids in india
have you seen born into brothels? if you haven?t- i vote you see it. it's really good in an awful kinda way. while it did not deal w/ aids in india specifically; it got me thinking about the aids pandemic in india. india and south africa pull back and forth for the highest aids population. i can?t help but think that the pandemic is quite different than what is going on in africa. for one- the economics are different (india has one of the fastest growing economies in the world). but i am scared to see how the caste system influences how the pandemic is managed?.

the democratic republic of congo
(central africa)
i have good friends who spent a month in the congo three summers ago. i knew that there are atrocities that happen there- but i am only now realizing that they are largely a hold over of what happened in rwanda.

bbc cliff notes
bbc country history
hrw
amnesty


darfur sudan
(western sudan which borders chad)
our church just completed a letter writing campaign over one weekend where 4600 letters were submitted to federal legislatures. the hope is that our government would force more involvement and intervention in the region. if you don't know about what?s going on in the sudan here are a couple of good sites.

activism
info/overview
hrw
amnesty
amnesty 2
christian relief work

there are so many others- the battle over diamonds throughout africa, the slaughter over oil in different parts of nigeria, or child trafficking to fuel the sex industry in east asia and around the world.

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lobby senate
lobby congress

what can else can we do?

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i've heard a lot of good sermons. i can only remember what a handful of them were about. one that seems relevant is a re-frame of the parable of the 'persistent widow'. the preacher outlined one of the missing keys of the text was not simply that the widow kept praying but rather the content of her prayer.

today's chewable vitamin
1 then Jesus told his disciples a parable to show them that they should always pray and not give up. 2 He said: 'in a certain town there was a judge who neither feared God nor cared about men. 3 and there was a widow in that town who kept coming to him with the plea, 'grant me justice against my adversary.'

4 for some time he refused. but finally he said to himself, 'even though I don't fear God or care about men, 5 yet because this widow keeps bothering me, i will see that she gets justice, so that she won't eventually wear me out with her coming!'
6 and the Lord said, 'listen to what the unjust judge says. 7 and will not God bring about justice for his chosen ones, who cry out to him day and night? will he keep putting them off? 8 i tell you, he will see that they get justice, and quickly. however, when the Son of Man comes, will he find faith on the earth? ~lk. 18.1-8

2005-03-30

today is a special day...
it's my mom's birthday!
it is also my neices birthday!

i love them awful.

i want to just take a sec and tell you had rad my mom is...
many examples come to mind-
my mom teaches second grade in the public schools.
she prays for kids in her class.
she prays with them when their feelings are hurt
she prays over them when they get their knees bruised.

and she intervenes in their physical situations too.

she advocates for them in times of need.
she protects them from some of their crazy parents.
sometimes she crys over kids and their situations.

my mom is fairly even handed. she's really smart. really smart.
her undergrad was in history and is our on site encycolpedia when it comes to the history of our country. this comes in handy when charles asks me questions like, 'what was the bay of pigs?' and i stare at him blankly and tell him to call my mom.

she's patient- most of the time anyways. she yells at me sometimes- but only when i'm a jerk. she tells me the truth and i know she loves me when she does it.

in many ways she's a role model for me. she shows me what it means to grow old w/ dignity (not that you're old mom). she excercises and travels. she has shown me how to bury someone you love most, and grieve their loss- and continue in life. she's going to work this summer w/ the sister's of charity in nyc.

basically- she rocks.
our relationship has come a long way.

my niece is not old enough to read-
so i'm not going to post about her.
but she's the greatest.

2005-03-27

resurrection
giotto

today's chewable vitamin
"the cross is not a defeat, but a victory. it is the dramatic reassertion of the fact that God's love is sovereign, that the rulers of the world do not have the last word, that the kingdom of God has defeated the kingdom of satan, that the kingdoms of the world have now become, in principle, the kingdom of our God, and of his Messiah: and He shall reign for ever and ever."
~n.t. wright

2005-03-26

the tomb couldn't keep Him

pieta
giottino
image taken from

today's chewable vitamin
" 50 i declare to you, brothers, that flesh and blood cannot inherit the kingdom of God, nor does the perishable inherit the imperishable. 51 listen, i tell you a mystery: we will not all sleep, but we will all be changed– 52 in a flash, in the twinkling of an eye, at the last trumpet. for the trumpet will sound, the dead will be raised imperishable, and we will be changed. 53 for the perishable must clothe itself with the imperishable, and the mortal with immortality.

54 when the perishable has been clothed with the imperishable, and the mortal with immortality, then the saying that is written will come true:

“death has been swallowed up in victory.” 55 “where, o death, is your victory? where, o death, is your sting?” 56 the sting of death is sin, and the power of sin is the law. 57 but thanks be to God! He gives us the victory through our Lord Jesus Christ.

58 therefore, my dear brothers, stand firm. let nothing move you. always give yourselves fully to the work of the Lord, because you know that your labor in the Lord is not in vain."
~ 1 cor. 15.50-58

2005-03-25

jesus
cimabue

today's chewable vitamin
"i could never myself believe in God, if it were not for the cross. the only God i believe in is the one Nietzsche ridiculed as "God on the Cross." in the real world of pain, how could one worship a God who was immune to it? i have entered many buddhist temples and stood respectfully before the statue of buddha, his legs crossed, arms folded, eyes closed, the ghost of a smile playing round his mouth, a remote look on his face, detached from the agonies of the world. but each time after a while i have had to turn away. and in imagination i have turned instead to that lonely, twisted, tortured figure on the cross, nails through hands and feet, back lacerated, limbs wrenched, brow bleeding from thorn-pricks, mouth dry and intolerably thirsty, plunged in God-forsaken darkness. that is the God for me! he laid aside his immunity to pain. He entered our world of flesh and blood, tears and death. He suffered for us."
~john stott

christ at the pillar

caravaggio
image taken from

nothing is sacred.

note to self.
a vent to myself about myself
by m. okonkwo

we know by now- that nothing is sacred.
this morning i re-learned this as my bbc world news page loaded.
the lead is the intimate details
of a family and their daughter in their darkest days.
this tragedy w/ the terry schiavo case
has really impressed the fact on me
that there is truly nothing sacred in our modern day.

now, i should say i'm sure that there are many well meaning and informed opinions out there in readership. as for me- i really don't know what i think about this whole thing. but it seems like a very complex situation.

and that is what saddens me most.

this woman and her life and future has become an "issue" and a "situation".

if you've ever been w/ someone who is dying (regardless of what has propogated the situation); it has the potential to be one of the most private and awesome periods of time. i am so frustrated with all of the elements that surround terry shiavo's life. i'm frustrated with the cameras and the media in particular. i'm frustrated w/ all the things that feed the demand to force this (the media's) supply.

and it seems ironic to me that this is hitting me so hard on this good, good friday.

not to compare the situations perse-

but i'm just thinking about how sometimes the story of jesus' life and death gets so foggy for me. i make it a situation and an issue.
i take stances and read stuff to defend my stances.
i have volumes of books from world class scholars that are dog eared and torn b/c i love the process of knowing.

i don't mean to downplay the benefit of the scholarly pursuit of knowing our heritage and being able to defend a stance on the facts of christianity.

but today, i am forced into a different kind of knowing.
i am stunned by the story and best of all, the Man.
i mean- wow. jesus- His life- his death- it really blows my mind.

and i can't help but think how it grieves Him when i approach my faith as an issue or situtation. when i simplify my faith to how i break down this pericope or how la la la said this and differed w/ la la la about that- i mean- i'm totally missing it.

today is a day that i can't miss-
it helps me remember what is central.
it helps me remember why i fell in love in the first place.
may it serve the same for you.

2005-03-24

when eating goat is anti-climatic...

so i walk in the door and exchange pleasentries
with my wonderful husband.
i had just walked in from and evening out for indian food
to celebrate some important birthdays.

i thought charles would be impressed w/ my daring choice of dinner.

i asked a rhetorical, 'guess what i had for dinner?'
charles' response-
'lion?'
charles' next guess-
'snake?'

i quickly understood that i needed to deliever the punch line immediately.
soon, eating goat would be anti-climatic.

2005-03-23

today's chewable vitamin
"decide then, like a good and faithful servant of Christ, to bear bravely the cross of your Lord. it was out of love that he was crucified for you. drink freely from the Lord's cup if you wish to be his friend. leave your need for consolation to God. let him do as he wills. on your part, be ready to bear sufferings and consider how in these sufferings lies your greatest consolation. the sufferings of this life are not worthy to be compared with the glory to come.

when you get to the point where for Christ's sake suffering becomes sweet, consider yourself fortunate, for you have found paradise on earth. but as long as adversity irks you, as long as you try to avoid suffering, you will be discontent and ill at ease.

realize that to know Christ you must lead a dying life. the more you die to yourself, the more you will live unto God. you will never enjoy heavenly things unless you are ready to suffer hardship for Christ. nothing is more acceptable to God, nothing more helpful for you on this earth. when there is a choice to be made, take the narrow way. this alone will make you more like Christ."
~ thomas a'kempis

2005-03-22

julian

ok
a couple of things to cover.

this is julian daniel and i would like to eat him.
that little fold in his left leg right above his knee.

that- and i'm getting an unusual number of compliments on bridget.
(my hair. yes- i named my hair. actually my mom did).
as martha would say- it's a good thing.

in other news,
i dropped in one of my favorite tiny chapels near my house.
this is the parish that most of my friends growing up went to.
it smelled kinda weird but otherwise i liked spending my lunch there...
i wanted to light a candle, but i didn't really get the system.
i got to ring the tower bell which i liked a lot.

two other things that have made me smile throughout the day is the kids i saw playing football w/ sweatshirts on. no coat!
i also received very happy news that my dear old friend teresa is engaged.

today's chewable vitamin
"this bread i break was once the oat
this wine upon a foreign tree plunged in its fruit;
man in the day or wind at night
laid the crops low, broke the grape’s joy.

once in this wine the summer blood
knocked in the flesh that decked the vine, once in this bread
the oat was merry in the wind;
man broke the sun, pulled the wind down.

this flesh you break, this blood you let
make desolation in the vein, were oat and grape
born of the sensual root and sap; my wine you drink, my bread you snap."
~ dylan thomas

2005-03-21

today's chewable vitamin
"the beginning of love is to let those we love be perfectly themselves, and not to twist them to fit our own image. otherwise we love only the reflection of ourselves we find in them."
~ merton

2005-03-19

ode to kirsten
over the last months- i have gained a new friend.
i've known her for a number of years.
we have lots of mutual friends who have sung her praises over the years.
but i've only recently had the pleasure of knowing her more.
i knew i liked her the first time i met her- and have quickly come to love her!
today is her birthday.

we share a lot of common burdens and it seems each conversation we have pushes me more to integrate those burdens into my everyday life. i really couldn't ask for much more in a friendship. thanks for being my friend kirsten!

2005-03-17

my peeps

erin go bragh!

the day of my peeps!

in other news- i am nearing completion of the springcleaning on my blog. now- i know that some of you may be devastated but the stevie memorialization is coming down tomorrow. but rest assured- i will always love stevie wonder and work him in as often as i can.

i've shaken the rugs, washed the window treatments and the floors and basically overhauled a little bit. giving the ole' blog some love. you'll see a simplified toolbar to your left. i'm using a new online bookmark system i like quiet a bit. it's called del.icio.us. it is very easy to use and i like the drudge no frills look to it. i'm cataloging my year in books over at all consuming. i like this too- although it's a little bit more difficult to use.

and for those of you wondering-
i think the department of immigration and naturalization is hooey.
i originally posted a nice irishman's quote-
but today- this one seems fitting.
if i could- i would devote this site to how utterly disgusted i am w/ the treatment of immigrants.
but instead i will be more subtle and hopefully not get on any big bad rader w/ carnivore or any government agencies.

so in honor of my immigrated relatives, and now- my beloved husband- i give you

today's chewable vitamin
"the statue of liberty is no longer saying,
'give me your poor, your tired, your huddled masses.'
she's got a baseball bat and yelling,
'you want a piece of me?' "
~ robin williams

2005-03-16

breaking news...

very dissapointed to hear this news.
bono was an alternative.

i'm dissappointed that bono didn't get the appointment-
although i didn't really expect it.
what i'm most disheartened by is that someone like wolfawitz got it.
i can't imagine what having someone who wages war so freely w/ guns
would do when he wields one of the most influencial economic bodies.

i think it's bad news for the poor.